I love words and do not take them lightly. I am well-read and have a fairly extensive vocabulary. I love mulling over concepts and possibilities, looking at things from a variety of angles, and discussing options and “what ifs” and “maybes.” When I say, “I’m not sure how to say this,” it’s a pretty big deal.
I’m not sure how to say this.
I can say that I’m on a thought journey with a renewed desire to seek Truth. I can say that I was recently reminded of our false separation between sacred and secular and that everything is sacred. I can say that I’ve been very aware that my thoughts and views on some very accepted beliefs are not in sync with those around me, and I can say that that makes me wonder if my view of God and redemption and forgiveness is also very different from theirs.
If this makes me sound depressed or angst-ridden, I want to assure you that I am not. The fresh realization of the sacredness of each part of life also causes me to see beauty in everything. A simple story reminds me of God’s love. A tale of good-versus-evil that some would ban brings tears to my eyes as I see pictures of Jesus’ sacrifice for me laced throughout the story.
Even a child’s tale can bring me to tears because of the beauty of love, hope, forgiveness, joy, and new beginnings.
I hope that I can find words to express the details. When I do, I will share them here with you.