Day 1 — your favorite song

Really? One song?

But OK. If I have to choose one, here it is. You’ve met it here before, but I’ll still give you your listening instructions:

1. Wait until you’re alone.
2. Turn the lights off
3. Stand in the middle of the room
4. Close your eyes and focus on the words:

worthy is the Lamb that was slain
to receive power
and riches
and wisdom
and strength
and honour
and glory
and blessing

blessing and honour, glory, and power be unto Him who sitteth upon the throne

and until the Lamb forever and ever.

Amen

Let your soul follow the music as it ascends. Let the beauty of it all wash over you as you approach the throne of God through the life of his Son.

Amen

Amen

Call me a chicken, but I’m still building up to spilling my guts here.

If you’re on Facebook at all, you’ve seen this going around. I don’t know if it’s a follow-up to the 30 day picture challenge or what, but the music person inside of me loves the idea.

So far, I’ve done very poorly with my goal of being introspective and dealing with my food issues. It isn’t that I haven’t shared the process on the blog, it’s that I haven’t been working through the process. At all. Maybe summer with its slightly slower pace will help. I won’t have to be at work as early and I’ve already talked with some friends about walking together this summer. If you’re in Searcy for the summer and want to join me, let me know!

But for now, here’s the beginning of the 30 day song challenge, brought to you by Lisa Burley and YouTube. Hopefully, you’ll enjoy some of this too.

  • day 01 – your favorite song
  • day 02 – your least favorite song
  • day 03 – a song that makes you happy
  • day 04 – a song that makes you sad
  • day 05 – a song that reminds you of someone
  • day 06 – a song that reminds you of somewhere
  • day 07 – a song that reminds you of a certain event
  • day 08 – a song that you know all the words to
  • day 09 – a song that you can dance to
  • day 10 – a song that makes you fall asleep
  • day 11 – a song from your favorite band
  • day 12 – a song from a band you hate
  • day 13 – a song that is a guilty pleasure
  • day 14 – a song that no one would expect you to love
  • day 15 – a song that describes you
  • day 16 – a song that you used to love but now hate
  • day 17 – a song that you hear often on the radio
  • day 18 – a song that you wish you heard on the radio
  • day 19 – a song from your favorite album
  • day 20 – a song that you listen to when you’re angry
  • day 21 – a song that you listen to when you’re happy
  • day 22 – a song that you listen to when you’re sad
  • day 23 – a song that you want to play at your wedding
  • day 24 – a song that you want to play at your funeral
  • day 25 – a song that makes you laugh
  • day 26 – a song that you can play on an instrument
  • day 27 – a song that you wish you could play
  • day 28 – a song that makes you feel guilty
  • day 29 – a song from your childhood
  • day 30 – your favorite song at this time last year

For Easter

by way of Mike Cope.

I waited patiently for the Lord:
he turned to me and heard my cry.
He lifted me out of the slimy pit,
out of the mud and mire;
he set my feet on a rock
and gave me a firm place to stand.
He put a new song in my mouth,
a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear
and put their trust in the Lord.
(Psalm 40:1-3)

A confession

I just have to admit that there are things going on in my life that I have absolutely no idea how to deal with. None whatsoever.

Most of them involve other people and I’m a big believer in letting people tell their own stories so I’m not going to dive into the details. But I hope that whoever reads this little blog knows that all of our actions affect other people. That even when a situation is “yours,” it is affecting the people who care about you. Please choose your actions wisely.

Thankfully, even though my mind is tempted to spin into 100 directions much of the time, my soul is calm. I think I’m past the point in life when I feel angry and disappointed about the things I can’t control. I know they’re there. I know I have to live through them and I know that I will live through them. I no longer feel like I have to fix them.

Here are some things I’ve learned in my 43 years of life:

  • You can give heart, mind, and soul to a situation and there will still be no guarantees that it will end up the way you want it to.
  • People are predictably unpredictable.
  • Faith and friends are absolutely necessary.
  • Time may not heal all wounds, but it can definitely smooth rough edges.
  • God will provide the friends you need.
  • God will provide the faith that you need.
  • People see what they want to see and usually find just what they’re looking for.
  • I’m not above petty jealousy.

The older I get, the more I find myself reading Psalms. The praise passages are beautiful, but I’m particularly fond of the parts where the psalmist is angry and disappointed but still talking to God about it. After years of observation, I’m certain that our problems come when we experience negative emotions and place them as a wedge between us and God.

I’m not talking about a God that’s small enough to be defined or contained in an 9:00 Sunday morning meeting. I’m talking about a big God that transcends time and culture and human understanding. A God who is large enough to be misinterpreted or even rejected and still work in people’s lives.

So I will take my sometimes angry, often tired, pettily jealous self and plop it down in front of God in the morning. I will most likely not read huge passages of scripture or pray long, eloquent prayers. I will most likely just sit in the dark for a while and say,

Dear God, i do not understand.

i want to understand, but i’m tired of trying to.

please be with my friends who are hurting.

thank you for the moments of peace.

come quickly, lord Jesus.

And then I will sit in the dark some more, drinking coffee and enjoying its warmth.

I hope that’s enough because it’s all I have.

Day 30 – A picture of someone you miss.


I miss these people. I miss who we were in college and the fun we had. I am SO SO THANKFUL for the relationships we’ve been able to reestablish through online communication, but still . . . I miss all of us being young, idealistic, broke, but ready to change the world. I miss the laughter, the tears, the easy-going pace of life when grades were all you really had to worry about.

I miss US.

We were all in a hurry to be at the next stage. If I could tell the college students I work today any one thing, it would be to not be in a hurry. Savor. every. moment. of the unencumbered time that you have. Be yourself and don’t be in a such a hurry to become part of someone else.

Don’t let your youth be wasted just because you’re young.

Look what I found!

Day 31 – A picture of a tradition you have.
Day 32 – A picture of a crazy night.
Day 33 – A picture of the house you grew up in.
Day 34 – A picture of your currently most played CD.
Day 35 – A picture of your favorite place to eat.
Day 36 – A picture of your ‘other half’.
Day 37 – A picture of the people you spend most of your time with.
Day 38 – A picture of the best part of your day.
Day 39 – A picture of your favorite movie.
Day 40 – A picture of your favorite Disney character.
Day 41 – A picture of a person you would love to bring back to life.
Day 42 – A picture of your dream house.
Day 43 – A picture of something you can’t function without.
Day 44 – A picture of someone you’re told you look like.
Day 45 – A picture of your room.
Day 46 – A picture of where you wish you were right now.
Day 47 – A picture of your favorite place to shop.
Day 48 – A picture of your favorite actress/actor.
Day 49 – A picture of where you live.
Day 50 – A picture of your most frequented place.
Day 51 – A picture of your dream car.
Day 52 – A picture of your favorite sport.
Day 53 – A picture of someone you think is hot.
Day 54 – A picture of the one thing you would bring if you were stranded on a deserted island.
Day 55 – A picture of the last movie you saw in theaters.
Day 56 – A picture of something that makes you happy.
Day 57 – A picture of your favorite holiday.
Day 58 – A picture of your favorite animal.
Day 59 – A picture of a random item that you own.
Day 60 – A picture of something you’re excited about

Day 29 – A picture that can always make you smile.

I work every Sunday night from 7:00 to 11:00, which means I don’t get home until after everyone else is in bed. Sometimes, Daniel leaves notes for me on the whiteboard we use for chore assignments and grocery lists.

This one — left about 2 years ago — made my mom/reader/teacher/librarian heart so happy! Daniel was only nine at the time.

(And yes, he read both Beowulf and The Odyssey, although they were in prose and slightly more age appropriate than the full versions would be.)