Ok. Yes. I need to do this. I have to do this. I don’t want to be the person who slows anyone down when I’m old. So — yeah — I need to do this. Ok. When is this going to happen? IT’S TOO HOT!! I can’t do this, who am I kidding? CRUNCHES? I can’t even DO a crunch. No, I’ll just do what I can and hopefully be able to do more as I stay with it. One step at a time. OMG. JUNIOR HIGH PE FLASHBACK!! AWKWARD JUNIOR HIGH ME ALERT!!! Why didn’t I get to take dance or gymnastics? Then I wouldn’t be so awkward. Lawrence loves to run. Sheila loves to run. Maybe I’m a runner and don’t know it. There’s no way I could be a runner, is there? Maybe I’m a runner. IT’S TOO HOT!!! And did I mention that it’s hot? So . . . when am I going to do this? Morning is the only time so … uhm … 5:30. I can get up at 5:30. The Shred thing is only 20 minutes long so I’d be done about 6:00, can shower and have coffee (coffee, coffee, coffee, coffee, coffee) and still get out the door on time. 5:30 is early. Seriously. Early, but if not then, it’ll never happen. So. 5:30 it is. Strength and dignity are her clothing — this may help with the strength thing, but awkward jr hi me will never have that dignity thing down. HOW AM I 44 AND STILL WORRYING ABOUT AWKWARD JR HI ME? Live in the moment. BE in the moment. The now. Not jr hi, but now. The present. The crazy 5:30 AM present moment. Never mind. I’m waiting until everyone else leaves for work or band or whatever. 5:30 is not the time. Not today. Tomorrow? 5:30. Today. No.
Whew! I’m tired just thinking about all this. Since I’m tired, does this count as exercise? Surely it does And you wonder why I’ve never done this regularly? It’s exhausting!