I know the saying. I know what the saying means and I’ve lived that truth several times in my life.
Still, I wish.
I wish I could have a year — no, just a month — where I didn’t feel the need to juggle being mom, daughter, friend, church member, employee, sister, and responsible human being in the midst of it all.
In fact, I would probably settle for a week or a day of that.
I wish being an adult didn’t mean being the decision maker for so many things that impact so many others.
I wish that other people’s words and thoughts didn’t matter to me. That I didn’t care as much. That I didn’t want to do a good job.
Somedays, I wish I could be ok with being the person who just shows up. Punches a clock. Warms a seat.
But that’s not me. It matters to me. People matter to me. Doing a good job and being responsible both matter to me.
I mess up. Make mistakes. Don’t always communicate well. Misunderstand. Assume. All those other things we humans do. I don’t like it, but I do.
Because that’s life. It isn’t always easy — in fact, it rarely is — but it’s life.